In the silent twilight
Enjoying the stillness of the night
All things cease
With the heart at ease

Looking at the moon
Wishing to see Him soon
Walking hand in hand
Forever in the Promised Land

Yippee

Been a long time since I've updated this place. I've been BUSY BUSY BUSY!!! Camp's just over and it's a great camp I'd say. Thank God for His leading in the camp and also a big round of applause for my wonderful committee. Pictures of the camp will be up shortly.

Got back my results yesterday. Pretty mixed emotions when I saw them. FInally got an A- for one module. Seems they haven't eluded me after all. But I had 2 C+... Can't believe my eyes.. I must have done quite badly for the paper to get this stupid grade. Oh well, at least I know where I stand. But my history modules were quite good. 1 A- and 2 B+. I simply love history!! will try to score better in the next sem.. Jia you to myself and to all pals who are heading towards the next sem!!

When life brings you down
And friends makes you frown
As burdens causes you to drown
And you find yourself spinning round and round

Cast them all aside
For my Lord is always beside
No matter whatever betides
I know He's there alright

Yea!!

After countless failed attempts, I've finally got my music to work in the blog!! Previous song by Corrinne May was leeched from someone else's blog, but now this is totally mine!!

Happy feet 2

Went to watch Happy Feet with my family today. Glad that it was still screening after so long. Enjoyed the show tremendously, think I still enjoy watch cartoons.

Age 22, living with a mind of 14. =P

1st day of holidays.. pretty normal, seems like any other normal day to me. Maybe I have had too many free days this semester, makes everyday look so slack. Planning for my timetable next sem, going to make it a 3 day week again.. hope the tutorials matches with what I've planned.

At His feet I fall
Giving to Him my all
Keeping none for myself
Save the Lord Himself

100 n counting!!

I've finally reached my 100 blog entry. It marks the end of my exams too! yea! To those who are still mugging, all the best for all the papers that's left.

Hmm, results will be out on the 26th.. Hope it will be a nice christmas present. hee..

Ends..

Haiz.. finally come to the end of the semester and soon to be end of exams.. Gotta get moving towards 2007!! But 1st there's YF camp to plan, Christmas and other many events lined up for this end of the year. Gotta dedicate some time to clear room of all the accumulated stuff from the semester and start making space for the coming sem. Time seems to catch up faster when we grow older each year.

Long overdue photos of the church wedding and dinner



little brides and grooms.. so kawaii




Brothers-in-arms



Ladies of the night

As snow starts to fall
Looking out of the room
Life seems to have hit a wall
In this sea of gloom

The whiteness of the moment
Gives me new light
Out of the torment
He ended this endless flight

Loosening the burden
Gazing up in wonder
Resting in the Garden
In His care forever so tender

A new month

It's December!! I'm getting a year older so fast!! Time really flies and looking back, I don't really see myself making a mark this year at all. The past academic year has been half wasted since I changed my faculty. Well, hope with a new start and a new year ahead, I'll make changes to this world I live in.

But summing up, life has been great this past year. Made a couple of interesting friends, understood myself a little better, grown a teeny weeny matured. But the constant thing is that I know that through all the ups and downs, God is always there for me to turn to and I thank Him for that.

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
(Proverbs 3:5)

B-, B-, B-

Come on everybody, let's start the B- chant..

Went to the History office to dig out my long overdue essays and test and what do you know, both are awarded B-

It's just weird that I've been scoring B- for all my essays and tests this semester. If I get B- for everything else in exams it would equate to a CAP of 3.0 which is just average in FASS. Grrr, I need to work on the As..

Oh, A+,A,A-
Why has thou eluded me all semester?

It's coming!!

2 more days and counting..

Wonder if I'm really prepared for it. I don't usually score well for exams, kind of an exam loser.

Pray and have faith!
That's all I can say.

upside of down and downside of up

feeling pretty down these days, was on the verge of falling sick too. exam stress perhaps..

People have asked why my previous post are songs/poems. It's just a passing phase that I just can't convey my emotions into words. Think songs/poems bring out the fragility of humanity nicely and straight-forward.

Sometimes I just want to vanish, change into the same colour as the wall, so that people just can't see me, can't comment on me, can't judge me.

The emotion roller coaster has just began. Hang on tight!

Nowhere to turn,
Nowhere to hide,
Till your arms hold me tight.

Keep me safe, Lord
Keep me safe.

Until the end, Lord
Until the end.

When I shall see You,
When I shall see You,
Face to face.

I know God makes no mistakes
He leads in every path I take
Along the way that's leading to home

Though at times, my heart would break
There's a purpose in every change He makes
That others would see my life and know that

God makes no mistakes.

Seasons come
Seasons go
Seasons change

Much to think
Much to say
Much to do

Heart stops
Heart cries
Heart loves

All things pass
All with a purpose
All in His time

study study study...

Looking ahead

Exams in 9 days! Things happen, can't sit down to study. FOCUS, my boy. Pray and be still for God's leading.

=|

Some things are better left unsaid.

Choices

Been thinking about the situation. Many thanks to friends who have given me feedback and advice. I've more or less come to a decision.

I like our current status quo and I really hope that it would remain this way. Scared? Maybe.. I just don't want things to change, it's fine as it is now. With me keeping silent seems the best option for both of us. As much as my heart wants our friendship to proceed to the next level, my mind tells me it's best to remain as it is now. It takes a lot of self-convincing and heart-ache to make this choice but I'm sure this is the best choice for now.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. (Matthew 6:33)

Hello!!

Greetings, Dr Chung! Do drop a note at the tagboard if you happen to come to my humble blog. Great to have you around for class! See you around in school.

PS to everyone else: One of my lecturers visits the students' blogs. Just saying Hi to her.

Penguins!!

Hope this show will still be in theatres when my exams ends, else it's so sad that I've got to miss it due to exams.

OOBE

Had something like an OOBE today during lecture. OOBE: out of body experience

Wasn't as dramatic as what is portrayed in TV and movies but just felt that my mind and body wasn't connected and the mind was floating away. Shaking the head a few times doesn't seem to help much. Closed the eyes and gathered my thoughts. Prayed a lil. It was just a queer feeling. Body felt limp too. Was it a near death experience? hmm, i wonder.

But anyway, I'm fine now!! Happily blogging away.

=(

It's a rainy day. Trapped in the house. =(

The end is near..

It has come to the time when everyone I meet in school has a stressed look.

End of semester is coming and exams are just peeking round the corner. Guess I'm a little stress, had a bad dream last night. Though not those kind where you'd wake up in cold sweat but just didn't sleep well.

Not feeling my best these few days too. Feeling tired and lethagic even on the things that I like. Wonder what's wrong.. Grrr, Pray and Have Faith!! All will be over and all will be revealed soon..

Behold, I come quickly... (Rev 22:7)

photos

due to popular demand. here's photos!! not very recent, but at least it's a feast for the eyes. =P


It only takes a spark to get the fire going,
and soon all those around will warmeth in its glowing...

Presenting to you the new church building!!

I ain't heavy, I'm his brother-in-Christ

That's me grinning away

YF 46th anniversary

Ages ago..

hmm, is this pic older? I wonder...

She ain't that heavy, they're bluffing.. XD

recent updates

yups, some updates in my life.

Met my translation group at BEDOK(!!!) on Sat to do an assignment. Thought that I would be late cos I left my house at 8 and supposed to meet the guys at 9 but then I managed to reach at 845 and waited for the rest who stayed at Bedok and they were late!! heh, it proved one thing which I said in the previous post. PIGS CAN AND WILL FLY WHEN NEEDED.

Had a great Sat at YF with new friends and old kakis. I can hardly imagine how life would be without YF on Sat. Think I might be slacking away the afternoon doing nothing. YF has always had a special place in my heart, it saddens me when youths give YF away for other things in life. AND SO, that's why I'm in the committee!! To make YF interesting for them to come!!

during teacher training today, I picked up an important lesson from what Angel said, 'think of each and everyday as though it is Good Friday and Easter Sunday.' This makes plenty of sense, without the Christ's death and suffering on the cross and His resurrection, life is so meaningless and empty of purpose each single living day. Troubles and problems cloud the day, tears and fears block the way, but Jesus came and all these fled away!!

For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain. (Philippians 1:21)

Flying faster than a bullet!!!

Aiyaya.. Have been 'flying ard' for the past few days.. Oddly, I've been almost late for all of my recent lessons and tutorials and important meet up times. And when that happens, this little PIGGY CAN FLY!!

Hai, seems like I need to work on the punctuality factor.

Point to note: The Gift is out in stores. Check out a music store near you!!

Don't know what I am talking about? click on the pic to find out!

Fairytales are beyond stories, they are written dreams..

Had a good dream last night. Ooo, how nice if it was true but like I always say, 日有所思，夜有所梦。Seems like I've been occupying myself with thoughts of it. *shakes head* trying to clear them out.

Come back to reality, my boy. Stop thinking and work hard towards the dream if you want it to happen!

Hey Hey

There's something new to discover everyday for this curious little boy!! I found out today that in National Library, the air con is super super cold, the blinds are automated, there's free but quite slow internet and it's a good place to study. Happened to be there on a Sat afternoon cos there was no YF. Busily typing my essay while multi-tasking with other things like chatting, googling, reading and etc. The wonders of youth culture!!

Thought a lot about things that may soon come to past. I'm sure of my direction and it seems to be heading in the correct way God wants it to be. Don't really know how it will turn out but I'm sure the promises of God doesn't fail.

Not one word has failed of all the good promises he gave (1 Kings 8:56)(NIV)

Decisions

After months of prayer and asking around. I've decided to not do particularly anything drastic but adopt a wait and see attitude towards the whole matter. I know that God leadeth the path ahead and I just have to rest in His care for all things to work out just exactly as He has planned in my life.

"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the LORD "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

爱

1 Corinthians 13:4-8


爱 是 恒 久 忍 耐 ，
又 有 恩 慈 ；
爱 是 不 嫉 妒 ；
爱 是 不 自 夸 ，
不 张 狂 ，
不 做 害 羞 的 事 ，

不 求 自 己 的 益 处 ，
不 轻 易 发 怒 ，
不 计 算 人 的 恶 ，
不 喜 欢 不 义 ，
只 喜 欢 真 理 ；

凡 事 包 容 ，
凡 事 相 信 ，
凡 事 盼 望 ，
凡 事 忍 耐 。

爱 是 永 不 止 息 。

Turning back

After months of not doing my daily QT, I picked up the QT book again. I looked at it, somehow 它认识我，可我不认识它。It feels just weird to restart QT again. Was thinking back how it all started. Initially, I would remind myself to definitely do QT the next day if I slept b4 doing it. Then came the excuses, 'I'm tired', 'I'm busy', 'It's just another day of no QT' and etc. Finally came the point of guilt-freedom to it. No reminders, no excuses just plain bo chup. I feel overwhealmed just thinking back on these thoughts. Why is man such a fallen creature? Do we really have no inclination towards holiness and purity? These questions need no answers. These few months of neglect has left me very distant from God, though I don't seem so, but I feel extremely empty inside. Not just mentally stressed by school work, but also spiritually drained. As I turn back from these dark periods, I hope this psalm will become my prayer and may it be a prayer of encouragement to others.

Psalms 51

1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.

2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.

3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.

4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.

5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.

6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.

7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.

8 Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.

9 Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.

10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.

11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.

12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.

13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.

14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.

15 O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.

16 For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it : thou delightest not in burnt offering.

17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

18 Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem.

19 Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.

Realisations

One essay is over but one more is on the way.
Pray for strength, Eggy. God will give you what you need to pull thru.

As I start to mature over the years, I find that God has chiselled off many rough edges.

Lately, it dawned on me that beauty isn't just skin deep. Look at a person from the inside to the outside and not the other way round. I had always been doing the exact opposite. All along, I used the external beauty to cover the inner flaws liken to sweeping things under the floor. Flaws will be flaws and they need to be corrected not concealed for when beauty fades, the flaws will be exposed.

Now, I know that inner beauty will shine forth much greater than the shortcoming on the outside. But the best thing is inner beauty never fades!!

To all beauty seekers out there, beauty and appearances are deceiving, look deeper to understand the truth meaning of beauty.

Week 9 and counting...

As the essays and project deadlines start to come closer, it also means another thing.. Exams are just soon to come. This week is week 9 and soon when term ends at week 13, exams will cloud everyone's mind. All is moving too fast and sometimes I wonder if I can keep up with the pace. I seem to grow tired as the time moves on, lack of motivation, lack of sleep, lack of this and that and all the what nots.

Gotta remember... Time waits for no man!! Move on and press on..

Dreams

I had a dream.
A bad dream.
A dream that haunts.
A dream that returns.
A weird dream.
One that will never happen.
One that will be naught.
A silly dream.
Never to happen again.
Never to happen again.

Shooting ( photos and guns)

hey people, yup, that's air rifle if you wanna know. And it's me!! Took this photo when I was having training yesterday.. Do I look cool or what.. Hahaz.

Anyway, I had my selection shoot on Wed and it seems pretty bad to me. Guess I was too nervous and couldn't concentrate at all.. FOCUS is the key in having a good score.

Yikes!!

Got back one of my essays and test this week. Pretty discouraging results, a C+ for the test and a B- for the essay. Not what I was hoping for. I usually score A- for essays and B for tests but with results like these it's kinda depressing, but on the other hand, it may show that I'm on the slide since the grades for both of them dropped. Hmm, is it time to pull up socks and get down to do some studying?

Exams are in 5 weeks time, it's seems far but in fact it's very near *cringes in fear* boohoo, am feeling quite down now...

Thoughts at the end of an essay

Finally I'm into my final leg of my essay writing. But then when one is done, another will appear, it's always the case. We are all chasing deadlines, no matter working or studying. Deadlines or in chinese '死线'. well, I'm actually kinda happy that this essay is ending as it had been affecting my spiritual walk. i neglected all QT during this period amounting to a month of spiritual malnourishment. But then I need to thank God for the various encouragement I have received from brethren and pulpit messages. Although I neglected Him, but He never gave up on me. He's always the constant friend but also we have to be reminded that He is a consuming fire.

10 words per minute -> 1500 words in 2.5 hours!!!

If only every essay was that easy... Can't believe that after 3 days of churning, I am still fumbling with it. Books towering over me, lecture notes and readings all strewn across the study table, highlighters all over the place.. It's like a WAR zone!!! Arrgh..

Ok now,
Breathe in, Breathe out.. Close the eyes.. imagine some place where you'd like to be.. Relax and...

Back to the essay again... :(

Busy busy!!

And so the essay machine has ignited...

word after word is churning out of my brain onto the computer screen. It's just so queer and a little nonsensical that just a moment ago, I can't think of anything to write, but with the injection of just one sentence I can go rambling on and on and I had 500 words in for the 1200 word essay.

Amazing eh.

Sometimes, I don't even know how good I am myself. A little egoistic here.. hee but praise goes to God. yup yup, He guides my every footstep and finger tap. He guides everyone else's too (like Joyce's.. :p )

Note note.. This is my 51st post. Kinda slow eh..

Suffering from Zzleep depravation

It's weird how God made sleep for us to rest and recover. Have not been having much rest for the past 2 days, the total hours I've spent sleeping totalled up to ard 9 hours. Although I managed to still go around doing the daily stuff, my brain doesn't seem to be working at it's full capacity, neither the eyes which can never seem to open more than a slit.

Sleep is just such an amazing thing. Imagine if the ability to sleep is taken away, it would be such a disaster. No wonder insomia is a major medical problem nowadays. Need to sleep soon to recharge myself.

Time to head for the sack!!

Total satisfaction

Card 5: After some rest, it just gets better.

Card 4: Tired but still hanging on.

Card 3: Tiredness crept in...

Card 2: that's a planet out of the solar system

Card 1

Here's my shots for today. Was quite surprised at how well my shots went, but there were always 1 or 2 stray shots on every card and also, the 10 circle is always so elusive, I can never seem to hit it. Guess I need to concentrate more when I'm shooting.. This is sooo fun, I just love shooting to bits.

A little jolt to the system

1st, let me welcome myself back to the blog after such a long MIA. Days have been zipping by and suddenly half of the semester is gone. Kinda feel like nothing much has been done and 6 weeks later it's EXAM time. Gotta start studying soon, i suppose.

Was kinda sad when I heard that there wasn't any event for air rifle in the Inter-Faculty Games (IFG). Was hoping to take part and at least get some competition feeling and maybe some prizes. But anyway, the sadness didn't last for long cos soon after, I've got wind of something even more happening than IFG. *drum roll* The selection for the varsity team is coming soon. Wow, that means that if I get selected, I would be representing NUS in competitions. How nice ya? But then when this feeling subsided, another problem cropped out. If I really became part of the school team, then how would it affect my studies and more importantly, my service in church? Would I then be serving half-heartedly when I have already given my commitment to God and to those who elected me to serve in YF comm the next year?

I'm seriously in doubt here but nonetheless, I've cast all these worries to God. I'll just have to do my utmost best in the selections and He will settle the rest for me. If by any chance I do get selected, then so be it. I'll just have to be a better steward of my time and talents then.

Cheerios and stay happy.

... ...

There's been no interesting things lately for me to update the blog. But just for the note, mid-term break starts this coming week. But don't think I can enjoy it much.

This is one of my favorite hymn. Hope it encourages you as much as it did for me.

The Old Rugged Cross

Verse 1

On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross,

The emblem of suffering and shame;

And I love that old cross where the dearest and best

For a world of lost sinners was slain.

Chorus:

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,

'Till my trophies at last I lay down;

I will cling to the old rugged cross,

And exchange it some day for a crown.

Verse 2

O that old rugged cross, so despised by the world,

Has a wondrous attraction for me;

For the dear Lamb of God left His glory above

To pardon and sanctify me.

Verse 3

In the old rugged cross, stained with blood so divine,

A wondrous beauty I see;

For 'twas on that old cross Jesus suffered and died

To pardon and sanctify me.

Verse 4

To the old rugged cross I will ever be true;

Its shame and reproach gladly bear.

Then He'll call me someday to my home far away.

Where His glory forever I'll share.

Gambatte!!!

I'm dying somehow 2 tests and 1 essay due this week. But the enticing thing is that next week is mid-term break. Yeah!! But there's much to be done during this break. One essay and one project to be completed. I know I can do it, it's just that I am lazy to sit down and study. I can sit down and do many other things like what I am doing now - blogg-ing, nua-ing, tv-ing and many other 'ing's except study-ing. Also, I feel displaced now in my spiritual walk with God, He starts to get smaller and smaller when my workload gets bigger which on the contary, should be the opposite. Not matter how great the workload is, if God is bigger than them then they will be little to me. But well, I'm not doing so. Everytime working based on my own strengths. I'm seriously in the dumps now but I can still maintain a cheerful outlook so friends and family don't worry, I am still same old ME.

Improvements

These are my target cards from today's training, not bad I would say.

OK, So you're asking how to define good?
1) The shots hit the bullseye. (duh)
2) All shots are in the black region
3) The shots are clustered together. (might not hit bullseye or in black region)

My Verdict:
1) I really need to get my aiming correct, the shots are not hitting the center!!
2) Most of the shots are in the black region
3) Most shots are clustered together

Card 1: still warming up, very dispersed


Card 2: Getting closer now...


Card 3: Not bad eh? Looks like Olympic logo. Haha.


Card 4: Getting a little tired (notice the stray shots), went for a little break after this.


Card 5 (After break): This is the best card of the day. Maybe I should be taking more breaks in between.. Hee..

Card 6 and so on are deemed too 'er xin' to show. It was evident that I was getting tired so I went home after the 7th card. But nonetheless, it was a fruitful training session. Yah, I love air rifle.

Stressed is desserts spelt backwards

Thank God for His wonderful grace, I've managed to survived 5 weeks of school, stress has really set in now. It's much more than what I experienced in Science but still coping fine.. It's kinda of a positive stress so it's actually driving me rather than impeding me to do my work.

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tutorial overload

I need help.. Tutorial fatigue has set in, I'm now bushed with all the tutorial preparations.. Learnt my lesson of never ever put 4 tutorials in a day.. Definitely a killer, saps more time and energy than 4 lectures in a day..

Progress Report

Yippee, I've heard the inter-faculty games are coming just round the corner. Hope to take part in the Air Rifle events. Here's some of my training cards not that good but I hope to improve.

Fatigue overload

After a tiring evening of training, I went over to church at around 10.30 to help set up the open house stuff. The moment I arrived, I was impressly surpirsed to see onlyEdson at the YF booth, and only Huijuan at the SBC booth and they looked like they needed extra help. Being the only one there and unable to split myself into 2, I decided to help the juan as she was busy with the photos, leaving no time for the other decos.

Along the way, Tian En came and the guys/gals from the study camp came to help and voila, we managed to finish everything by 12. After a little dilly-dally-ing and fellowshipping, managed to grab some sleep at 2 am, weirdly enough, woke up at 7am!!

And well, dragging the zombie body to the open house, thank God that I lasted all the way till the end at 4pm and even later helping edson again when they returned from IKEA to set up the YF room until 10pm.

Tired me.. Slept straight for 10 hours till sunday morning and another 3 hours after choir today. Looks like I've managed to catch up the sleep and can sleep some more again tonight.

Air Rifle Day, Yippee!!

It's the day of CCA again. I'm so driven by this passion that every week, I can't wait for friday to come. There's just this sense of achievement every week after training when I have improved by a little or modified my techniques for the better. I just love this sport. Hope it doesn't changes my priorities in life. God is still 1st no matter what and studies 2nd.

In & Out, Here & There, To & Fro

Had a REAL annoying day yesterday from the moment I woke up till 5pm. From the minute I woke up at 8.30, I realised that I could not log in to NUS email. Then after that, I tried logging in to IVLE, the system said that my ID was invalid. So, I called Registrar's office, which then directed me to IT center because they said that this was an IT problem, so when I called IT care, they said that my account was de-activated so, they directed me back to Registrar because they said that they only activate and de-activate accounts on instructions from Registrar's office. And so, the whole day I was making calls in between the two departments trying to get my problem solved while also waiting for either side to help me investigate and solve the problem. Then on a call from IT centre which said that they found the email which instructed them to delete my account, and so when I whom upon contacting the sender of the email (who was part of the Registrar's office), my problem was solved immediately. But all these was done only at 5pm!!! Can't they have better work efficiency? took the whole day to settle one problem of mine!! Can't believe it, and I think they need better coordination between their departments.

Doom and Gloom

One more hour to my 1st test of the semester.. Dratz, can't wait for it to be over. This test is about 4% of my grade for the translation module so I have to score nice nice, if not throw away very wasted. Been slacking a lot on my QT, seems to me, I'm drifting more and more to sleep when I start doing my QT and can't concentrate on it. School work and other stuff keeps clouding my mind, looks like I need more divine help to clear my mind :)

Shan't talk much liao, time to study for test. Gloomy day outside, keeps wanting to rain but then doesn't. Long day for me as usual. But I like tuesday as 3 of the modules are my favourite modules. No matter how tired I am, I'd never switch off during these lectures.

Yummy

I am totally mesmerised by this phone. It looks so tasty and nice to the eyes.

YIKES!!

Wanted to snuggle in bed this morning as it was quite cooling, but couldn't as my sister had tuition at 8.30 and with her awake, none can be asleep.. Hee, :) Today was kinda fruitless as I only touched a little on my translation module's readings. Haiz, lazy me.. AND I totally FORGOT that there was the giving of invitations to the church's open house next sat at 1pm until Preacher Ngoh called me to see if I was going, so I told him I couldn't go.. Crapz, I felt so guilty that I took a quickie lunch and rushed over to S'goon North to help. Turned out that there was only 9 ppl (only 3 youths) there to cover 20 blocks so it was a good thing that I went. Darn, I gotta work on my responsibility.. getting quite irresponsible nowadays..

Tired..

It has been a tiring friday. I guess it's because I caught only 5 hours of sleep the night before. Shall not talk much.. nitez

Loop or Shuffle?

Been a lazy day.. I spent the whole day lazying around the house cooped with my readings. Been carrying my readings everywhere I go. (except the bathroom) Something really has to be done to those ant-sized fonts. They are a hazard to people with poor eyesight like me. No wonder the amount of short-sighted people in Singapore is rising. Darn.. Anyway, all these readings seem to make no head or tail because when with 3 history modules this semester every reading seems to be talking more or less about the same thing. Crapz..

1 Sheep, 2 Sheep, 3 Sheep...

Woohoo, I've got a counter for the blog.. Quite a nice piece of addition I would say. Been a long day for me, as usual, every Tuesday ends at 8pm but today it started at 8am too cos I had to discuss tutorial HW with my group and the only time we had in common was 8-10.. Crapz but anyway it was fun. We were quite a dynamic mix that we came up with Dynamix as a group name.. LOL!!

Something not so nice happened to me today and I was in for quite a shock but then thanks God that everything turned out fine (i guess) and it was resolved eventually. Looks like I have to be smarter next time when I buy/do things

Monday blues?

Been choing-ing throught my readings and tutorials this whole day cos tutorials starts this week!!! arrgh.. Seems to me Monday as a free day is quite good. It's a day where I can adjust myself from fellowship(slack) mode to studying(mugging) mode. Maybe I should strive to make Mon a free day as much as I can from now on.

Sunny Side Up

I am an egg lover, maybe that's why my name is Aik(Egg) Hui. Seriously, I like to eat all kinds of egg-related stuff. And so I was browsing through blogskins, I found this skin which is quite cool and kinda related to my life and voila, here it is. I guess this skin should be staying quite a while until I grow tired of eggs (which I think I never will).

Anyway, I've almost completed my SS lesson and I am headed towards teacher training class which will last for 6 months of Sundays starting September. I know I don't really have a knack for teaching but since this training comes once in a blue moon, I think I should just attend it and then make decisions after that. Definitely, the kingdom of God comes 1st and I have to work towards that rather than obeying my physical restrictions.

Heading back to my readings.. Nitez..

Eye Wide Shut

Went for air rifle training. The 1st I've been to in so many years.. I was counting, almost 4 years!! I'm not really a great shot but at leat I could remember the techniques that I was taught many years ago.. I've been contemplating the idea of shooting good enough to join the school team but the thought vanished when I remember how I used to tell the younger youths in church about chasing pretty rainbows.. All are vanities, everything the world can provide are all vanities.. So why should I be so bothered to join the school team.. All I have to do is to do my best and let God do the rest, whether to join the school team is up to Him, not me. I just have to attend trainings dillengently and God will show that His mercy and grace never fails.

Ants Attack!!!

After choing-ing through all the readings over the weekend and monday to prepare for the 4 lectures on tuesday and surviving all 4 lectures on tuesday, I've decided to declare Wednesday as a rest day for myself. I don't mind reading a lot of stuff but the only thing that I don't like is the ant-sy words that is bothering my eyes, somehow, when I am really tired and my eyes start to play tricks on me, the words starts to dance like ants, crawling on the paper and believe it they do resemble ants. So now on a hot Thursday afternoon, I'm in school looking at the ant-ish words again trying to make academic mountains out of the ant-hill of readings. Will be a short day today but there's YPM later at Angela's house and it was her birthday yesterday so I think we are celebrating it later, though it's a little late. And lastly, Happy Birthday Angela. A year older means more responsibilities and I am going to give you these responsibilities as your bday present. Haha..

Looking back at the day
Whatever can I say
The time past and gone
And now I am all alone

The sky quickly darkens
And the crickets awaken
Wondering under the stars
Amidst the sound of cars

Wishing for the night to end
So that you can see ahead the bend
Hoping for you the best
When you can finally rest

Break a leg...

Am now in school trying to live with the noise generated by NUS breakers. So you might be thinking what's NUS breakers? They are a bunch of people who wanna break some guiness record by folding paper cranes and something like that.. it's about breaking records. I was like alamak, of all things they can think of. Can't we think of something more on the academic side like a record of 1st class honours students, record-breaking sportsperson from NUS? of all things under the sun -> paper cranes??? whoever thought of this must be crap.. hahaz. Anyway, I hid in the library to escape the noise and the recuiters who earnestly try to recruit everyone into the event.

To be or not to be?

It has come to a point in time where I have to make important decision. I've been thinking seriously over it coupled with earnest prayer and meeting up with older people in the church to talk about it. Initially, I thought that I've made the right choice then when things started happening, I regretted doing so and in a moment of haste, I made a quick decision without thinking through but eventually, after talking with my mom, I made the final choice and after that, I really felt at ease, really at ease. I know that God has a plan in everything He does and I'm not one who is supposed to hasten it or to hamper it. All I can do is to await for His will to be done and if I'm involved in it, I'll definitely be involved so why should I bother so much? Too kaypo is not good was an important thing I've learnt in the army and it's a lesson I've learnt well.

Back to square one

Due to unsatisfactory performance of the new blogskin, as there is some transition problems with the html code, I've decided to stick with this skin as it's still quite reliable. Until i can find time to work out the problems, this 'girly' blogskin will stay here. Personally I don't find it girly. Angela: a rainbow is unisex lor.. haha..

Another new skin

Due to some comments that my rainbow skin looks quite girly (-_-"), I have decided to change my blog skin. This is so かわいい = cute and I like it cos it describes what I mostly do which is to make people smile and laugh by making a fool out of myself. (^v^) But I guess it's just something that I am born with which is to tickle the funny bone of others. Well, hope I can tickle myself to laugh with this new skin. heh..

Musings

I was looking through my blog and I find that I happen to be talking quite a lot about the weather. *grinz. But seriously, Singapore's weather is erractic though it's on the equator but it's just so unconstant. Well, on to the main topic. Went for AWC orientation today and boy, I think I am facing serious competition if I want to get selected to enter the shooting team. There are really at least 4-5 guys there who have much experience in shooting and have been shooting for the past few years by representing their unit in army shooting events. I think I will have to buck up in order to get somewhere. But I love this thing, shooting is a thrill and it's an interest I'd since secondary days, however, I never took it seriously, or maybe I should say, I never take anything seriously, that's why people always don't take me seriously. Training will start for me next friday and I'd like to see how far I can go in this aspect.

Another new day

Went to school in the middle of the day and boy, the weather was hot, extremely hot. I was squinting my eyes at everything that reflected the glare of the sun. I was perspiring everywhere I went. Somehow, I think I need to thank God for air-con. 'hee' Now, I'm waiting for the start of my lecture, the only one for the day. I'll be having Air Weapons Club orientation in the evening. Will post later to update on that. Chiao...

2nd post to compliment the 1st

Went for night class today. Learnt a lot from Pastor Zhang regarding God's moulding of Jacob. Jacob shows me many aspects of human nature and most of these are present in us, especially pride. It takes a certain kind of understanding and acknowledging our shortcomings before we let God take control of our lives. I take that as an important lesson learnt today. Well, tmr will be another new day. It will be just a 2-hr lecture tmr, easy to survive through it unlike the tuesday timetable. Will post more musings tmr.

A post for the day

Yah! spending time to coop myself at home on the bed, in front of the computer. It's a free day and it will be a free day after the tutorial balloting!! I like free days, it lets me catch up on my readings and to print them in preparation for the next few lectures. Also, having time to myself lets me think of my service to God, esp this year where I am the camp commandant of the Dec YF camp. Looking 2 years back, I would never have seen myself taking up this role but then I see now as a chance to serve God. The years passing by have made me into a different person, I'm a little more matured, have a good analytical mind and also able to understand the concerns of others. But there's more room for growing and maturing. I wanna be a good citizen that belongs to the King.

A new day of happenings and revelations

Today was a day of lectures till 8pm, I was pretty amazed that I was able to keep myself awake till that time with a barrage of 3 lectures starting from 2. In a total, I had 4 lectures today with one starting at 10am and I can say, I'm pretty satisfied with my attention performance so far. Of course, all this isn't possible without God who always through all ways and means manage to sustain His children through various situations.

I wore my new sneakers to school today. I think I bought them half a size too small. It created blisters at the heel and at the pinky toe and so I had a hard time walking around the various lecture venues today. But thank God for preparing a free day for me tomorrow so that I can rest my tired feet by slacking at home.

Met Ruth today again to sign the laptop loan as a guarantor. After that, we were going for lunch when she decided to walk through the bazaar. In the end she bought a handphone Bible verse chain for $8, then she started whining if it was too expensive. Well, all I could do was to tell her what's bought is bought, you just have to use it to your best.

That set me thinking, it's more or less the same with the way things work. No matter how much we think and pray before we do something, there's always consequences and then after that, we have to deal with the consequences and all that follows. Because we had placed the thing in God's hands and definitely, He is the one who allows the consequences to happen so as to mould us into a better person through the choices that we make.

Sometimes, I think I think too much into things and end up doing nothing at all because I'm always afraid of what will happen. I look back in my life and I agree with that. I'm afraid to throw myself into a relationship, afraid to take risks, afraid of how this one action will affect others, afraid of this, afraid of that, etc. Praying and committing choices to God is one thing, making the 1st step to do the thing after God has replied is another thing. I must say that it's time that I started learning how to do the next step.

School beckons and other thoughts

It's weird to go to school on a gloomy Monday morning. The sky was overcast the whole day today, my mom kept telling me it's haze, but I think it's just the clouds. Anyway, the start of school should be an aniticipating moment but well, somehow I am not very anticipated to go to my lectures, rather I'm feeling constipated. Various thoughts run thru my puny head - What if I get a lousy lecturer, what if I find I cannot survive in this module, what if my project mates are a hopeless bunch, what if... Plenty of what ifs but no answers to them. I know God has a plan and purpose when I prayed before the bidding of my modules. I handed the success of the bidding to Him and with what I got, I should thank Him and do my best in those modules. That's what I know, but I forsee that it's not what I am going to do - it's human nature i guess. Well, school is still school with all the problems but I've considered myself blessed as not everyone gets a chance of education at the uni level. So I've to depend on God to guide me in the modules rather than depending on my human nature.
Went for Bible class on Chuch history by Pastor Zhang. It's the last lesson of this topic and I've got to say that I'm impressed. Looking back at history makes me wonder how people cope with their problem then and how much differently are we doing so now, especially in the area of evangelism, I can say I am not lifting my finger the least to evangelise. Somehow or rather, I've kind of psycho-ed myself that I don't have the gift of evangelism. Again, it's the darn human nature that's playing a fool here. I guess it's my inability to talk sense that I find myself not convincing to others. It's something I definitely have to work on in my years to come as a growing older and older Christian and an exemplary role in church.

A new skin, a new beginning

Yoz ppl, here I am back again after a year.. I've been blog-hopping for so long and I've decided that blogger.com is the BEST blogging service there is. I've been to friendster, MSN spaces, livejournal, none of them meets my expectations. So after some tuning to make my blog look a little more exciting, I'm back now again in full colours of the Rainbow.

Getting busy

Here I am once again, droning on this 'incredible' life of mine. Time is on my side now. I have so much time on my hands that I don't really know what to do with it. If power corrupts, I think time makes a person slack. But seriously speaking, letting time go on and on seems a waste to me and I am not a person who actually knows how to make use of time to it's maximum.. So, I always try to dedicate the time I have to God, let Him guide my mind and body in the day ahead but sometimes, my head gets the better of me and instructs me to get on with life just the way it is.. well, looks like I need to put God 1st when I get out of bed everyday.

Exams are over, it's time to play.. Or is it?

Woohoo, finally I took my last paper of the semester and it feels so good. Suddenly I am no longer under any stress of any form. But here's the catch, I'm starting work on Tuesday!! Sigh.. I don't even have time to enjoy myself and I have to work myself to death. Working with children ain't easy, it takes quite a while for the child to understand you and once they do, all hell breaks loose.

But I gotta thank God that everything has been planned out nicely for me. It's just so 'coincidence' that my exams finish last Sat so I can start work on Tuesday. If I have any modules that ends on this Thursday, I can say goodbye to my job. So like what I always say. Nothing happens without a purpose, there is no such things as coincidence.

Well, this holiday is the long break for me. I hope to accomplish quite a lot of things in this holiday.
1) practise my piano until it's rottenly good
2) pass my FTT
3) revise my driving and hopefully can get a test date and pass it.
4) read up on the books that I have been dying to read.
5) grow closer to God, somehow, I have drifted away during the exam season

So I gotta get going to get some things done. See ya soon.

Exams exams and more exams

When will it ever end, I really wonder... when do I have to stop taking exams? I look at the stack of notes and books on my table, I really wonder.. The night grows longer and colder, eyes go weary and tired, the bed looks so inviting and revision looks so boring... Feel like jumping off to bed right now but I still have tons of stuff yet to be covered, arrgh, so tired.. Haiz, having a bout of depression due to exams.. wonder why am I doing this when this is my last sem in science... Looks like the books are beckoning me back into the myriad of words... Tata for now..

Weird Dream: Exam stress?

Exam stress my mom calls it. Weird, I'd rather say it. But here is the dream of last night.

I dreamt that Singapore was going to war and I was part of the troops going to fight. So at the warfront, everything was issued: bullets, grenades, filling water etc. Then there was a pep talk by some Minister of defence and meeting the loved ones for a final farewell. Soon it was time to head to the battlefield then I realised that I did not bring my SBO(Skeleton battle order: Just for info, the SBO is the most standard piece of a carry pouch every soldier must have, it houses 2 water bottles, 8 magazines of 30 bullets and a jacket for wet/cold weather.) I panicked on the spot rushing here and there looking for any substitute but I can't find any so I asked my OC what to do, then he told me off said I must be 'eat snake', scared to go to war so purposely forget to bring the SBO. I got so angry that I woke up.

Weird dream right? Lol.. I can't believe it myself. But everyone looks so real, even my pals from army and the 'beautiful language' that my OC scolded me. Maybe it's really exam stress.. Haha..

The End of all things: Credits

Oh man!! I can't believe that it's another end of a semester already that means that the exams are peeking right out of the corner.. It's COMING.. NOOOOO!!!

I have to say, this was a great semester although some modules can be quite a killer. But my fav module SSA2211- Singapore: Evolution of a Global City State is the best. Being a science person and able to score in this history module seems weird to me but it's just neat to know that I have a knack for history.. another new discovery of myself.. Another thing to add is Mr Kwa is the 1st cousin of our dear PM Lee Hsien Long.. Amazing right!!

Another one of my fav module is PC1327 - Science of Music. Happened to take this module with Zhichun who took it for cross-fac but I took it for fun as I'm not supposed to take it bcos I'm a physics major but Who Cares! I'm a FASS student in the next sem. Anyway it's a good exposure for me both in physics and music aspects and have to say Prof Bernand Tan is a good droner. Drones all day but doesn't care if anyone is listening. On the other hand, he has a great many accomplishments if you happen to visit his webpage..

The rest of the modules are not so nice but one worth mentioning is PC1144, Prof Frank Watt is one of the slackest lecturers I've seen in Science Fac, he comes empty-handed into the LT, access his website to get the lecture notes and presto, let's begin our lecture.. I was impressed at his level of using technology to the max to his slackest advantage. But on a note to add, he's a good lecturer, he is able to get the ideas and concepts across without much hindrances maybe bcos of his size as he always uses his body as a living example..

Well, it's the end of a fruitful sem with exams left to go.. Hope I'll do well in the exams and score at least an A which I missed in sem1 and then I can enjoy myself to the fullest in the holidays.. I've so much things planned out for the hols!!

Down with Windows

For the umpteen time, I just have to say this.. I HATE WINDOWS. I don't hate MS Office nor IE6 or Media Player. I just hate the WIndows OS esp Win XP. My Windows comp crashed again in just a short period of 1.5 months. I really can't stand the frequency of the crashing, it irks me so. It makes me treasure my Apple laptop much more each Windows crash. Believe me, Apple OS do crash but it does so in a understandable way, at least I understand the reasons for the crash because the system tells me in a layman way. For the Windows OS, it just leaves much to be desired, unless you are a real comp technician whiz if not you don't understand the figures on the display.
Let just hope that the new OS; Windows Vista makes a much better performance compared to its predecessor.

The Frog

A frog placed in a boiling hot pot of water would jump out immediately. The frog does that to preserve its life.

But if the frog is placed in a pot of water and it is slowly heated till boiling point. The frog would be cooked to death eventually.

The frog symbolise you and the water represents SIN.

Which frog are you?

Do you dwell in 'small' sin and slowly sink deeper and deeper into it, finally dying in all of your follish ways?

Or do you treat 'small' sin as a big no-no and make a definite stand against it, confess to God and ask for forgiveness?

Actually there's no big or small sin, all are just sin in the eyes of God and it incurs His wrath.

But through God's infinite love and mercy, He is willing to forgive us if we turn away from our sinful ways, ask for His forgiveness and accept Him to guide our lives.

It may be a tough journey, you may still feel very comfortable sitting in the warm water but remember it's boiling slowly, killing you in the end.

What was that?

Hey peps, I've got back my 1st essay that I have written in NUS. And woohoo, I've got an A-. Waha, I can't believe it, but thank God for that. I really didn't do much research for it, all I did was to based my conclusions on the evidence in my readings and poof, out came the essay, mostly crap if you read my previous post. But I should not be complacent just because I got an A-, I should strive to do better for my next essay, I have to uphold my A standard.

My mom brought my faulty digi-cam to Canon service centre today and amazingly, the malfunction was due to a manufacturing default and it get reoaired for free!!!

Money woes

Went to watch Amry Daze today. It was super good man. Though I have read the original book written by Michael Chiang and knew the lines inside out but it was a totally different experience. It relieved my army days as a stupid recruit (as what my BMT sergeant told me, length of hair=knowledge. so recruits are stupid) plus many fun occasions in those 2 years which will alway be part of my growing up.

However, the downside of the show was that my friend bought the most expensive ticket for me. Wah, heart pain. Now I'm $50 poorer, but I think it was worth it.

That's not all. Cos, I'm visiting the dentist tmr. Oh no, it shld cost about another $50 odd. Adding to the pain, I'm going to another concert on the 25/3 which is $25. Woohoo, I'm going to spend quite a lot this month. at least a 100. looks like my iMac 2007 realisation has to be set back by another month or so.

Heart pain, pocket empty, bank account ringing low.

Anyone kind enough to donate to the poor?

Amazing!!!

Unbelievable things have happened this week...

1) I just checked my exam timetable and it's wooaaahhh.. Thank God that my exams finish within a week but haha, it's not really that fantastic as my papers are all back-to-back.. I have 3 papers that's like that. Afternoon paper, followed by an evening paper, then next day, morning paper... I think I can start to ask ard which of my hostel staying friends will let me stay in their room.. hahaz

2) After spending so much time on my essay and handing it up on thurs evening at 5.. I received an email on fri morning @ 7am when I woke up. The email is as follows "Your essays are ready for collection at the office." I was like, am I still dreaming and blinked my eyes a few times to look at the collection date, yup, no mistake about it.. can't believe it that the tutor spend just one night to finish going thru the essay.. I have a 'garang' tutor, looks like I have to up my socks a bit too..

3) I taught children's worship in church today.. hmm, kids nowadays are really getting harder and harder to teach. I had a hard time but thank God that all was fine but I think my standard is still not there yet. I need a lot of practice on how to bring the lesson across.. Hope that I can utilise the time God has given to me wisely to improve on all these aspects.

Self-inflicted Injuries

My heart is so pain... A heart-wrenching feeling... Why... It's all my fault, I forgot to do it for someone and now someone has taken the initiative to do it ... Why must it be so? Is it going to be like that all the time? Am I destined to be slower than others in my whole life?

ARRGH!! School's Starting Tmr!!!

WAAAA!! There's school tmr!! Finally after so long. Well, I have mixed feelings going back to Kent Ridge.. Part of me feels so sianz, another sem of mugging, boring lecturers, crappy tutors, squeezy shuttle bus, and oh the many lousy food stalls at the canteen. But the other side of me feels happy that I'm back to school. After so long of slacking in the hols, it's finally something to keep me occupied and focused. It's a new sem ahead of me, with more challenges ahead but with a correct aim and mindset, I guess I need to depend more on God to lead me through this sem like He did last sem. I'd say last sem was a disaster but only with God's guiding I managed to scrape through my 1st set of exams in NUS. Though sometimes through God's guidance I may see no light and despair clouds the way ahead but I'm sure there's a purpose in every direction that He leads, and I'm 100% sure God makes no mistakes.