Year End thoughts

As the year approaches to a close, I look back and I find myself maturing emtionally and spiritually, ( maybe physically growing fat). I've been through a lot this year. The rough transition from army to civilian life. Once I was 24/7 away from home now I'm 24/7 at home. It's a tough adaptation for me. I even brought some of my occupational habits, eg: treating my family members like my men in the army. Give you instructions, you follow, if not you get it. Well, I'm trying to get these habits out of the system, having some improvements but still much to be done. I'd like to thank God for my parents who have been always so supportive and encoraging and always nearby. Without them, I guess I'd be a nobody now. Spiritual wise, I think I learnt many lessons from my daily walk with God. Though I don't usually do quiet time but my prayer life has been improving. I never felt God any closer than before. Prayer for me is a special time I spent with God, it's just like a intellectual conversation and somehow God replies to me through words in the Bible. I used to think prayer was a one way traffic, and God is like some genie in the lamp who shows you His presence by the things He does. But lately, it's a 2-way road. I find myself really conversing with God like He's just beside me and I never knew that I could cry while praying. Grown men don't cry but with such closeness, it's unavoidable. I really hope that my prayer life could be maintained and even be made better and closer with God.

Slack Day

Slacking the whole day. Nothing to do, nothing to read, nothing to eat, nothing at all. In and out of the room, playing games, watching tv, couching on the sofa, curling on the bed. I think a few more days like that, I'll go crazy if not fat and lazy. Quarreled with my whole family just before dinner, ate dinner with a scrowl on the face. Went for YPM and Edson share on Elisha taking over Elijah on how to really rely on God and do things using God's strength and not oneself. It was quite appropriate on the account that I was doing the SunBeam event. I really relied on my own strengths, being conceited and big headed, I thought that it was small matter, God is not needed to interfere but I was wrong, even small matters can become big matters and big matters will explode into super catastrophes. But thank God that eventually I realised that wIthout God all things is not possible. Even with the event so close, I think I have not really learnt my lesson fully. But I really thank God that everyday is a learning opportunity for me as I serve in in the years to come.

Up in smoke

Well, well, 4 weeks have passed since I've started school. Can't really remember the things that have happened over the month, I think I also forgot 50% of the lecture. I'm like virtually taking blank stares at the tutorial questions and trying to remember if I ever learnt it like 2-3 days ago. On the other hand, I really thank God that He has sustained me through this month, can't really tell when I'll fall sick with all the early mornings and late nights, thank Him for preserving my health up till now, for He is the giver of breath. Imagine if you don't take in your next breath, I guess you might not live till the next minute.

Reading the papers about Singapore becoming a gracious society, something I saw today got me really thinking if all these talks were just rubbish. I saw a mother with two kids boarding her car after a coffee break at Coffee Bean abt 20 metres away, she was holding a ice-blended coffee cup. After tucking her two kids into the car, she got into the driver's seat. Then, the most unreal thing happened. She placed her empty cup on the pavement, closed the door, buckled up and drove off!! I was like flabbergasted!! The nearest dustbin was like only less than 10 metres from the car!! Now I am wondering what kind of a mother is that, doing such a 'uncivilised' act in front of her own kids, what kind of moral values will she be teaching her kids? Are we a gracious society because our government says so? Or are we a gracious society because as human beings, it's our responsibility to keep places clean, treat everyone as how everyone ought to treat us, learn about empathy. This issue really bothers me, I often think about the moral values that my parents and primary school teachers used to teach me, have they really, in this age of rapid economic developement and globalisation, GONE UP IN SMOKE??

Down and Out

It has been one whole week of school. Can't believe I've managed to survived it. Somehow I feel more tired now than when I was in the army. Met a few of my old friends, seniors who told me I'll soon get used to the life in uni. Life's been pretty boring, lecturer's are boring beings, computers has more life than them.
Headed down to camp today, went to see my men's ORD parade. Finally witnessed the point of their lives where they really transform from boys to men. I'll never forget the times I've spent with them, all the tiredness we shared, distances we have covered, enemies we have 'killed' , doing 'illegal' things and then try not to get caught. Scenes of these just flased acroos my eyes as I see the happiness on their faces. Those were the wonderful memories which I'll cherish till the day I take my last breath.

1st Day of School

View from plane returning to Singapore, My Home



Can't believe that time passes so fast.. It has been 2 months since i ord, and today is the 1st day of school.. Hurray... Went to NUS today for my 1st lecture, reached there supeer early man, happened to be the only one inside for like 20+ mins... Ha, i always had the image that physics teachers were monotone, grayscale beings, not much colour in their lives, something like a 1st generation Nokia phone. But this lecturer is different, he's not actually very colourful but at least he is out of the black and white era and actually speaks with a polyphonic voice, akin to maybe a Nokia 6100.. Wonder why sch must start today when tmr is National Day, Happy Birthday SIngapore!!!!

LONG time no see

Hi, I'm back finally from a long break. Never had the time to really sit down and update this blog. but then i guess, there's always no time for this and that everyday. God gave every man 24 hours a day. It's fair to all men and how you spend the 24 hours is all accountable to God. Ha, finally I'm getting nearer to my ORD date and now it's just the final leg left before i can really rest on my laurels. My Taiwan trip is looming ahead and I just hope it will be gone in a flash. That's it for now hope to see myself talking more often. Cya.